untethered

"It's never too late to be what you might have been."
-- George Elliot

Untethered is a story about letting go. It’s a story about change and transformation.  How I realized that in order to have the life I actually wanted, I needed to let go of everything I had created to survive.

I consider life a series of choices and these form life’s tenets – friends, romantic partners, careers, behaviors, and wellness.  At the age of ten, I made choices to cope with traumatic, abusive events that occurred in the years following my father’s death.  I manifested those into destructive, addictive behaviors as an adult. I was guarded and had a manic need for achievement and perfection. Work became a safe harbor and morphed into a dangerous, frenzied addiction. My insatiable need for fulfillment through work drove me to the edge of my life, more than once. Until the moment I wondered if it was possible to change my life’s choices and create a purpose-driven life based on my heart’s ideals and soul’s intentions.

There wasn’t one method, no “app”, for change. I dug deeply into my roots and found harsh, painful truth amidst the muck. When my desire for clarity and resolve outweighed fear, the world opened. A beautiful grace emerged when I embraced the imperfect mess that is life. There were moments of great triumph, and others I felt as if I had I landed face down in a mud puddle. I became my own, most powerful secret weapon.  Change came from within me, because of me, because the whole person who lived within wanted to thrive.

Untethered is published by Balboa Press, a division of Hay House Publishing.